Become YOLANDA

Well, you’ve been reading my posts. I’m sure by now you’ve either developed a halo or a horn effect when it comes to me. Either because you think I’m good and that everything else about me is good or that because i’m not shy to speak my mind, that I’m rude or disrespectful or something. So today I’m here to replace all those made-up thoughts with facts.

I don’t need to introduce myself. You know me. I’m a 26 year old who’s suffered from depression, anxiety, questioned her existence and self-worth. I have had my heart broken more times than I care to remember. I hide my feelings, mostly for people because I fear being hurt.

As much as I’m honest and opinionated, I’m very lowkey. I’m big on privacy. I relish and enjoy being by myself. I’m a thinker. Well the truth is I overthink a lot. I plan alot as much as I’m spontaneous.

I hate being disrespected. Can’t stand people who cant think outside the box. I don’t cope well with people who are narrow minded. I love seeing things from angles the average person doesn’t think of.

I have my fears. I fear having cancer again. I fear I will never have kids. That I’ll never find someone who will truly love me for this person that I am. I am a mixture of so many things. More often than not, I’m misunderstood. I worry about alot, especially whether or not I’ll make my mom proud while she’s still alive.

My favorite thing to do is write- hence the blog. I listen strictly to Drake when I write. The song that’s playing now is “Nice for What?”. If I would lose my phone, I’d lose all my thoughts. These thoughts are the things I publish here. I’m not big on meat. I only eat it for iron purposes so in essence, I’m a part-time vegetarian. Drake is the father of the baby he and I are going to make- soon, hopefully🤣.

I’m a huge God stan. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe God sends people to you and that He can use you as a tool to change someone’s life.

155cm may be short but I’ll kick your ass if you come at me. I worry that someday I might kill someone because of my temper.🤣

I have learnt major life lessons. Lessons that have made me into the person that I am. These lessons have taught me the things I write in this blog. All my hardship, heartache and break have made me into this Yolanda. This Yolanda you become when you read my posts. This strong, resilient, often crazy person. This me.

I called this blog Becoming Yolanda because I want you to become me when you read what I have to say. I want you to seep into my mind and thoughts. I want you to see the world the way I see it, even if it’s for a couple of minutes.

That is who I am.

I am, Yolanda.

“That’s a real one. In your reflection.

Without a follow. Without a mention.” -Drake, Nice for What.

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